Who said, 'life is fair'? Who said, 'what goes around will comes around'? Are we thinking or saying things to console our hearts but only realise how inconsolable we are or have already become? Life is never fair, or not even meant to be. Can we choose where and who we want to born to? No.
Saturday, July 14, 2012
Wrote so why. at
1:34 AM
When the sudden urge to blog kicks in, here it goes.
We all have goals, don't we? Most of people my age, or at least I believe, wouldn't say we have achieved our goals (not counting yearly goals). Probably goals like what we want to be or want to do in life, I'm sure we all had that one thing. We toiled and work hard to reach our ultimate goal. The feeling when we achieved our goal. Feels great isn't it. But have anyone thought of what's next? How about, setting new goals? But isn't too tiring? To start all over again? And what if I just build my life towards that only goal that I have set? When I seemed to have it all, but infact once I achieved my goal, I became nothing again. Then I realised..
When I was a preteen, I used to think being 20 years old is far away. But in a blinking of an eye, I've already passed that age. It was then I realised, it seems far, but it will happen. I tell myself that I will work hard till I reach a certain age, then I will enjoy the fruits of my labour. Then, what's next? Prepare to die? Wait for death to knock on my door? Life is too short isn't it? Like a mist, here today and gone tomorrow. Then I realised..
Was death more important than life? Life seems nothing much when we compare to physical death. Life isn't forever. But so to speak, is death forever? It's seems weird to put death and forever together. But isn't this case true? In life we expect death. What should we expect after death?
'Yet when I surveyed all that my hands had done and what I had toiled to achieve, everything was meaningless, a chasing after the wind; nothing was gained under the sun.' -Eccl 2:11
'What good is it for a man to gain the whole world, yet forfeits his soul?' -Mark 8:36
I know people are going to judge me. Like I'm too young to even understand what's chasing after the wind and meaningless. Trust me. My life goes on and would most probably stays the same. I'll still work hard and toil towards the ultimate goal I have set. BUT, to me, to Him, what may seems chasing after the wind, it is not. When you've resolve in your heart, who you truly want to serve.
Saturday, June 2, 2012
Wrote What a life. at
11:59 PM
I don't get why people would say it's so nice to have siblings. Having one is a chore. Imagine having two. What's the point of having them when I act like they don't exists. Or I hope they don't. Especially my mum's son, who behaves like a freaking pig that rules the world but the truth is he's just wasting the damn precious resources on earth. Such a waste to splurge it on this pig. Don't call him my brother. I don't want/don't have a brother like him. There's news of people dying everyday, but why not him. Take him away, save resources. I wish he die and burn in hell. If this could happen, I wish to be the only child. I can't live like I'm the only child. But the truth is, I don't have any siblings. I'm not the only child, but I don't have any siblings. I live with strangers. What a life.
Tuesday, December 6, 2011
Wrote Malaysia Truly Asia at
11:49 AM
aah back from Ipoh. It's been quite a while since I went back. 2 years I think? But really hate the long ride there and back. Think should take a plane next time when I go back! But yeah, this time went back was because my of my cousin's wedding! So my first two days stay was really fun. Okay maybe fun isn't really aptly. But I really like the idea of gathering. Because each time we go back for visiting, I only see my grandma and a few aunts. Other relatives from KL and JB won't be back. But this time since it was my cousin's wedding, most of them are back! Except a few cousins and one aunt. Really love such gatherings since we had never ever go back for Chinese New Year. Which everyone will be back, except us. The food there is still as awesome and cheap. And my cousin and aunt actually bought duriansssss! yumm. And heard that another cousin is getting marry soon! I hope to go back again! :) Special occasions will be fun. Plain visitation is plain boredom.
Every dog has its day. Similarly, no one stays at the top of the roller coaster always, while the rest at the bottom. We all will have our own day one day. Whether sooner or later. No one stays on top forever. No one stays at the bottom forever.
Sunday, October 30, 2011
Wrote cast away at
12:33 AM
I always thought next time when I grow older, I will get a house by the mountainside. Stay there with just my love one till we meet our maker. Sit by the window, or balcony with a hot chocolate all day long. Listening to the whistle of the wind and look at how they cause the grass and trees to sway. And when it's raining, we will stay indoors, to see and listen how the rain taps on our window. Nature at it's best. But still, long way.
Saturday, August 20, 2011
Wrote the hard, painful truth. at
11:52 PM
All these years, I see them. I hear about them. I know them. 'their hearts were burning with the truths.' but when I looked back, suddenly a gush a sadness overwhelms me. Because mine was never so. why. but what's even more depressing was that I know that I'm not young anymore, if only I can go back to my younger days. if only I were 10 years younger. if only.
Wednesday, July 27, 2011
Wrote yawnzxc at
8:57 PM
I'm so, so, so tired. I reckon I should spend more time at this space, but seems like I do not have much time. Need better time management so I may have 26 hours everyday? As if. This blog is so void of pictures, gonna upload some nice ones then.
Always remember, when you're angry, you're the only one suffering. So, let go.
Wednesday, June 22, 2011
Wrote seriously at
10:37 PM
I don't mean to sound angry. But why take all the pains to organise a freaking thing, when you don't intend to execute that. Seriously, just say f off and you don't want to do that. Don't waste my time.
Wednesday, March 30, 2011
Wrote don't you feel small? at
1:14 PM
As of July 2010, the Hoyts had competed 1032 endurance events, including 68 marathons and 6 Ironman triathlons. They had run the Boston Marathons 26 times. Also adding to their list list of achievements, Dick and Rick biked and ran across US in 1992, completing a full 3,735 miles in 45 days.
When Rick was asked about the thing he really wants to give his dad- "The thing I'd most like is that my dad sit in the chair and I push him once."
"I drove north today to see the Timberman Triathlon. I was hoping for some inspiration to train hard for the upcoming weeks. Quite a few miles out (6 hours into the race) we saw what could be a lone man with his son. We pulled off and sure enough it was them. All alone. No one out cheering, no other runners, bikers. Runners had even finished at this point in time. We were about 50 miles from the course. I can't explain the feeling to you, seeing this sight. We pulled over, jumped out and started yelling and cheering. I was brought to tears watching them go by. Dick said, 'thank you so much.' "
Friday, February 11, 2011
Wrote Life is at
1:34 PM
Life is like drinking a half full cup of milk, if you have no preference over milk, you feel that it's enough. But if you like milk, you feel that it's not enough. But if you hate milk, you feel that it's too much. Which category do you belong to?
Saturday, January 22, 2011
Wrote mama says at
1:49 PM
Life is like a box of chocolate, you never know what're you going to get.
I can't wait to eat steamboat on chinese new year eve. not that I'm deprived, but eating steamboat at home is the safest, most comfortable and most worth it! I want loads and loads of veggies! (:
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
Wrote new year new thoughts, never too late. at
12:42 PM
Who wants to spend their life wondering? Or proving? Or finding faults?
Yet die finding no answers. Proving nothing. And end up realising you failed to point the finger at yourself and you failed to learn the lesson. Most importantly, who wants to die with nothing but regrets?
Truth is if you're average, you got to work harder to be the top. If below average, even harder.
Saturday, December 25, 2010
Wrote the last few days. at
9:24 PM
MERRY CHRISTMAS to ALL! (:
One thing I don't like about you: thoughtlessness.
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
Wrote birthday is when your friend say nice things at
9:56 PM
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LIM PEI TING! Glad knowing you, a friend who is always there to say 'cheer up, you still have me' when I'm feeling down, helping to carry laptop when it's heavy, sharing cardigan when it's raining and we had no umbrella and one of the few who will still take time to talk on phone even when technology is so advanced. Although your name, Felicia or Pei Ting is kinda common, even your surname is common, but a friend like you is one in a million. There isn't a moment of boredom when you're around, always making me laugh. Happy 18th once again, have a blast and have fun buddy! :D
Friday, December 10, 2010
Wrote try. at
1:03 AM
Try all you can, you never know where you'll end up.
WELCOME ♥
Hi, thank you for visiting this humble space of mine. I don't blog as often as I used to because I no longer find any value in blogging daily affairs, although reminiscing the past is important because it's the past that made who I am today. But I will make use of other platforms. I would pop by here if I find any thought-provoking matters or current affairs that are worthy for me to pen my thoughts.